Days 81 – 90

I haven’t done anything related to writing or editing at all. However, I do not feel bummed out. I think that is an improvement. In the last few days, I have however thought up a third story during this pandemic. It’s a portal fantasy and I have only the bare bones of what I want to happen. But I’m going to have a fun adventure with it.

Days 71 – 80

The last ten days have been unproductive. I didn’t edit or write anything. I have been looking at writing a new supernatural thriller though. I’ve got some story planned, but I don’t know how it ends. I’m not sure how long it’ll be either.

However, at the same time a YouTuber – Derek Murphy, I follow came out with this long video about novel writing basics. At the end of the video, there is a small exercise where who fill in the blanks about what your story is about. It actually helped me a bit with the story I’m working on. I have added some more things to it and it’s starting to become something more.

I’m not productive enough and I feel shit about it

I’ve been in the Netherlands for six-ish weeks now. I literary arrived the day before everything shut down, so it should have been a paradise for me. I was already going to have some time off work so I had been psyching myself up to it.

And then I get here and my ability to perform fails.

I’ve made some progress editing the beginning of a novel (which I gave up on). I also started a novella that’ll I have done by the end of this week. I’ve been keeping track of what I’m doing and I feel terrible about all the days where I did nothing. All that lost potential. Why can’t I make writing and editing a 9 to 5? It’s almost like I have burnout again, but I’m not sure if I do. It doesn’t help that I’m having a lot of negative thoughts that have no relation to my life at present. They are taking up a lot of time in me. Maybe it’s because I can’t socialise in person anymore.

It’s not a good day unless I’ve written more than 1k and I hardly ever do that. It’s not a good day when I spend hours playing computer games, even if I do manage to write. That’s still time spent elsewhere. From memory, I used to be so efficient at writing. But now my body and brain says no 😦

So where do I go from here?

I’m slowly getting things done, but not to my liking. Do I just keep chipping away at it? Maybe I have to as I can’t seem to do anything else. Maybe having a day job was something that improved my writing. It gave me some eustress about my finite time and made me manage what I had. Now I have all the time in the world I have no immediate rush to do anything 😦

Days 41 – 50

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My current quarantine project.

These last 10 days, I’ll tell you what. I’ve been all over the place with how I feel about my writing and meeting my goals. I created the ‘write 500 words a day’ goal for myself. I only failed that three times. Then I became stuck in a certain section, but that was because I didn’t know where I was going. But today, while doing laundry, I came up with the ending. I’ll have finished the first draft by tomorrow.  I’ve written 2700 words in four hours today. I’ve got a scene or two left and I’ve already written an epilogue.

I didn’t expect it to end so soon and I think it’ll end up being less than 25k. And after finishing this story, I’ll let it sit for a week before editing it 🙂 Depending on how much I’ve improved, I’ll be able to get this edited sooner than I thought.

 

Here is what I did over the last ten days;

  1. 1400 words written.
  2. 500 words written.
  3. 1200 words written.
  4. Nothing.
  5. Nothing.
  6. 500 words written.
  7. 215 words written.
  8. 400 words written.
  9. Nothing.
  10. 2725 words written.

Myers-Brigg Personality

I went and did that Myers-Briggs personality test. I got INFJ, the Advocate. Apparently, I’m a little bit rare and special. When I read through the profile, I saw a bit that resonated with me and a little that didn’t. I wonder if these tests take in a person’s life experiences because I never really gravitated towards charity work like the profile said. I have a lot of distrust for places that claim they are a charity. I also fit into the turbulent side more than the assertive side. My husband, on the other hand, is an ENTJ. And I feel like he is my complete opposite, but we complement each other very well.

 

 

The first 40 days

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My current quarantine project.

I look at my blog posts about the first 40 days of my creative endeavours and I’m like, is that all? I’m not nearly as productive as I would like and yet I felt like I had accomplished quite a bit. It’s strange how I see things.

I always want to have more done than I have completed and I somewhat blame my cross-stitch kits. Those little bastards call to me too much. I need to complete them like I’m trying to fill a fix.

I hope by the end of the next 40 days; we’ve come out of quarantine and that I’ve at least finished The Dragon’s Mate. I want to publish it by June/July. But that is not a set date. I also want to finish one of the three cross stitches I’m doing as well 🙂

31 – 40 Days

Digital-artistic-Sketch-of-a-Dragon-1146713332_2092x1438My writing is slowing down mainly because I don’t know where I’m headed. I had a decent beginning and now the sagging middle has set in. I also don’t know where and how this story will end. I’m on the fourth chapter and 14 000 words in. I still planning on this being a novella but because I don’t really have a plan, I’m not sure. Once it hits forty thousand it becomes a novel, though I don’t think it will be that long.

I watched a video for people unsure about their stories to write out a synopsis to pin down what they want to happen. Maybe I should do that. It’ll clear up the white pages in my mind.

 

  1. Nothing.
  2. 1200 words.
  3. 1200 words.
  4. Nothing.
  5. 1500 words.
  6. Nothing.
  7. Nothing.
  8. 800 words.
  9. Nothing.
  10. Nothing.

21 – 30 Days

Isolation is getting to me. I’ve been all over the place and every day I’ve felt both sadness and happiness. I’ve been trying to learn Dutch on Duolingo and I’ve plateaued halfway through the first stage 😦

Also, I stopped editing in favour of starting a new medieval fantasy novella I thought up on the second day. Since then I have completed two chapters and a total of 9100 words. I’m mostly making it up as I go with only a few future events to aim towards. Since it’s short, I might have it done in a month 🙂 Below is what I did for my story.

  1. Nothing.
  2. Nothing (thought up of a new story idea).
  3. Wrote 3039 words.
  4. Nothing.
  5. Wrote 2328 words and created the book cover.
  6. Nothing.
  7. Wrote 742 words.
  8. Nothing.
  9. Wrote around 2500 words.
  10. Nothing.

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I’ve found that I work best with no music and only ambient sound around me. It makes me focus more and afternoons/evenings are when I get most of my writing done. I used to run a Youtube vid of jazz cafe music in the background because I previously found that I could hyper-focus in a noisy cafe. So I figured that I would take it home with me. It kind of worked but not as well as no sound.

And because I was struck with a new shiny idea, I also had to have a book cover made immediately. I spent a few days looking at dragon images on iStock until I came across this one. With some simple editing on Pixlr.com I went and made me a decent cover image. The trick is to keep it simple. 

 

Utrecht, a month in.

Today marks the one-month anniversary of my arrival to Utrecht. It is the one month mark for the coronavirus shutdown.

The day me and Chris got out of the UK was the day when everything closed. In the beginning, like 90% of everything was shut down. Thankfully supermarkets, laundromats, and that variety store Action were still open. Also, you could order food online and whatnot.

Now there are cafes and small corner restaurants open for takeaways and whenever I got out for a walk, I see plenty of people. And people are canoeing along the canals! I thought you couldn’t do that? And there are so many people out and about just lazing about. I’ve also seen that many people repairing or building things too. No better time like the present, I guess.

What am I personally doing?

Trying to learn a bit of Dutch through Duolingo. Trying to write/edit my stories. Overly bonding with my cats. Wondering why I haven’t accomplished more in my life now that I’m left with nothing but my thoughts. You know the usual.