Still burnt out :(

It’s almost the end of the Edinburgh Fringe Festival and I’m getting sick of 57 hour work weeks. I’m still burnt out from before and I don’t know when I’ll return to writing. What’s more is that I’m irritated with myself about not writing and all the lost time and because of that I get more pissed off. When the festival finishes I don’t know what I’m going to do with my time.

But I think I’m slowly coming out of my funk. I’m thinking of my stories more as opposed to not at all, but I’m still not at the stage where I want to do anything with them. Maybe it’ll take another month or so for me to get over it.

 

I wish I was a machine

I would say I have terrible writer’s block, however, I think it might be burnout. Really good time for it to kick in (not!). I have all the free time in the world because I’m back in Aust and not working, but I can’t seem to make myself write or edit 😦

I have several unfinished first drafts, that I know exactly what needs to happen. I have them planned out and everything. But it’s like smashing my head against a brick wall. No, I do not want to write, I don’t want to edit, and I don’t find joy from things like reading, playing computer games or surfing the net 😦

I take joy in the fact that the last two years of my writing journey has been super productive and I am really satisfied with what I’ve accomplished. I’m getting to the point where my first drafts are boss 🙂

But what am I supposed to do now?

How do I break out of it?

When will that happen?

What next?

I’m burnout from the three stories I’m currently on. I’ve been focusing on nothing else but them. Which probably explains why the last edit I did of Jumpstart was so painful. I just want to finish them and move onto other things.

But the thought of working on them instills a sense of avoidance. However, I do not want to waste my time not working on something. So maybe I’ll go back to some of my older stories that I neglected because I got shiny new idea syndrome.

Feet or Fins edit 10

Little bit of an update. I finally got around to starting the 10th edit of Feet or Fins. I’m in that stage where I’m burnt out from spending so much time on it, while I also want to get it done and dusted.

I can’t wait for it to be over because I want to move onto other stories. Also, even at this late stage, I’m thinking of changing one of my character’s names. I’m finding that there are quite a few little mistakes too. I’ve missed a word or I’ve put a similar sounding word in place of the correct one. Most of my edits are small and it’s only grammar and punctuation etc.

I feel like I’m on track to have this story done by the end of the year 🙂

Tiresome editing :(

I’m finding my editing to be tiresome and longer than I expected. It looks like I am going to be re-writing the entire thing and since my last post I have only reached chapter 4. The thought of this makes me cringe and on any given day I can only manage a small chunk. Last night though, I did about 2 or 3 pages and that was a stretch for me 😦

I have no idea how long this is going to take and all I want is it to be over. My goal of being finished by now is completely shattered. I feel burnt out, but I have to continue. I’ve already gotten this far and I wonder if I’ll feel this way for my other stories? Is this a natural part of writing? The only thing that is keeping me going is the thought of finishing and publishing this book.