Since my burnout in June, I’ve only just begun to get back to normal, but my year of non-progression has made me feel shitty about my future. Where am I going if I’m not writing? What is it all for?
But I’m emerging, I’ve written about ten thousand words of a new story, but just the thought of all time wasted in the months before makes me depressed 😦 I wanted to have at least one other story out before now, but I have failed myself. Maybe next year will be better.
Yesterday was the last day of my chronicling my writing progress and it was a failure. It didn’t prompt me to write any more than necessary and I don’t really care. I thought I could eventually go back t]and find my old productive self from last year, but she’s still lost 😦
No words 😦 I feel a sense of un-accomplishment pervade me. I can’t finish things and have an even harder time starting them. I read a section of Bell’s book ‘The Mental Game of Writing’ and there was a section about how over Christmas he goes over what he’s done for the year and all I can think of is that I have wasted so much time 😦 I really think that I could have completed a few works and have them out by now 😦
No writing and no desire to write 😦 Makes me feel bad again.
I watched a video on minimalism and one of the questions was ‘What do you want to do with your 30’s?’ It made me think some more about where I’m headed. In 15 months I’m going to be 30 and I’ve still got my goal of self-publishing 10 books to complete. I want to achieve it, but I’m still just getting over my burnout so I don’t know if I’ll make it 😦
Also, I haven’t written anything.
I’ve written the first three chapters of a new story. I had writing a skeleton draft of this story last November. I pretty much started with the end in mind and during a plane trip got back into it and added some more events to it.
It’s going to be a young adult fantasy set in a late-medievalist style period, but at the same time, there is also a palace setting that is more advanced in culture and technology but not by much. Think 1600/1700’s.
It mainly follows one girl, Katella, whose brought to the palace in disguise by her half-sister and her father so she can help them stay in power because they have been conning the priests and the royal family. But it is also a time a stress and political intrigue and if they are found out to be lying about what they can do it can be disastrous.
The first two chapters were quite tedious to write. I’m thinking that it may be because I’m still a little burnt out. But I’m planning on writing the scenes I like first, so it’s going to be all over the place, but maybe that will help me as I’m going into this story half blind with what’s going to happen.