Day 22 of writing

No words 😦 I feel a sense of un-accomplishment pervade me. I can’t finish things and have an even harder time starting them. I read a section of Bell’s book ‘The Mental Game of Writing’ and there was a section about how over Christmas he goes over what he’s done for the year and all I can think of is that I have wasted so much time 😦 I really think that I could have completed a few works and have them out by now 😦

A little pep talk to myself

Stef, you’ve been MIA with writing for a while now. That burn out hit you in mid-May with some force and it’s taken up residence. It’s now coming up to six months and you’ve achieved practically nothing. You were on such a role this time last year, you have to get back on that wheel. You can and will do better if you want to achieve your goal of 10 stories out by the age of 30. Tick Tock!

 

18 Months

I’ll be 30 in 18 months.

My current ultimate goal of pushing out 10 stories by this deadline is looking like it might not happen. Eeek! Damn my mortal flesh body, you had to go and be organic 😦 I honestly believe that if it were not for burnout then I would have pushed out two maybe three stories by now. I do not know when I’ll pick up the pen again.

But I can tell you that the next stories I will be publishing are; Save One, The Things We Do, and Jumpstart. These are the ones that are only a few drafts away from completion. I’m so close, but I just can’t make myself attend to them 😦

I haven’t really thought about what happens after I get ten books out there. Maybe I’ll start to develop more of a following (That’s a dream I have) without putting that much effort into it . . not likely. Maybe I’ll start a youtube channel, I’ve been thinking about it. Or I’ll just set another goal to achieve. I don’t have much skill in marketing and I’m quite a shy person.

I don’t know how I’ll feel if I don’t complete my goal. I’d imagine I’d feel pretty down. I mean, I’ve had years to complete it. Why didn’t I manage the circumstances to ensure that I completed my goal? What did I do wrong? But that is something I can manage at the moment.