What next?

New year but just another common post about 2019 goals. I’ll be turning 29 in three months and I sure as hell don’t feel that old. But with the dawn of a new year and a looming birthday, I ponder what my new goals are going to be. I think I’m almost over my burnout, but my energies are scattered and I haven’t been able to focus them at any one project. I have a few almost ready, semi-ready and tons of uncompleted stories that I can’t stop thinking about.

But I have some vague goals that I want to achieve in the near future. They are;

  • Have another story self-published by my birthday (March).
  • Have a total of three stories self-published by the end of the year.
  • Complete a total of five first drafts (I have many semi-completed first drafts).

On a side note, I’m planning on spending time in coffee shops while writing. In the past, I’ve only ever written at home because it was just my habit, that and I’m also quite cheap. Now I’m going to have to fork out a few pounds for some tea lol.

I haven’t created a hard deadline of when these goals need to be done, but I figured that I’ll wing it.

One month to go

There is just over a month left until 2019 and I’m no way closer to publishing another story. I was hoping that I’d have something ready by now. But alas it is all my own fault for not managing myself properly so that I could achieve my goals. Maybe I could achieve something in the next 30 days.

18 Months

I’ll be 30 in 18 months.

My current ultimate goal of pushing out 10 stories by this deadline is looking like it might not happen. Eeek! Damn my mortal flesh body, you had to go and be organic 😦 I honestly believe that if it were not for burnout then I would have pushed out two maybe three stories by now. I do not know when I’ll pick up the pen again.

But I can tell you that the next stories I will be publishing are; Save One, The Things We Do, and Jumpstart. These are the ones that are only a few drafts away from completion. I’m so close, but I just can’t make myself attend to them 😦

I haven’t really thought about what happens after I get ten books out there. Maybe I’ll start to develop more of a following (That’s a dream I have) without putting that much effort into it . . not likely. Maybe I’ll start a youtube channel, I’ve been thinking about it. Or I’ll just set another goal to achieve. I don’t have much skill in marketing and I’m quite a shy person.

I don’t know how I’ll feel if I don’t complete my goal. I’d imagine I’d feel pretty down. I mean, I’ve had years to complete it. Why didn’t I manage the circumstances to ensure that I completed my goal? What did I do wrong? But that is something I can manage at the moment.

I have no attention

Urrgh, I still think I’ve got the burnout. I look at my incomplete stories and have no desire to get into them. I even try to force myself to edit but I only get a page through before losing interest/attention. It’s becoming a real problem because months are going by and I not progressing in any way 😦 Its a downer. When am I going to snap back into my writer mode?

For others who have had burnout, how long did it take for you to get over it completely?

My impatience! Writing update.

Arrrggg. I’m doing the eighth edit of Jumpstart and I’m still finding things wrong with it 😦 It just reminds me that I’m still working on the stories that I thought I’d have completed by now. I’ve got three almost ready, but I’m getting spent with them. I just want to move to other things. But the fact that they are uncompleted sit in my brain taking up space and energy. I’ve got some sci-fi stories I want to move onto.

This all has to do with the fact that I have this 10 books by age 30 goal thing. I’m turning 28 in a month and I wanted to get at least one story out months ago 😦 I’m just annoyed that I underestimate my time and talent management.

I think the only thing I’ll have done by my birthday is a short story I wrote the other month. I think it is almost done. I need to make up a cover image and do maybe 2/3 more drafts.